Being god… and transforming

My apologies…. lots of spelling errors due to rant style typing on a shitty virtual keyboard.

Someone on YouTube made the comment of god being in a different dimension than themselves. This started off as a satirical reply. Which got the ol mistake-maker going… and i think I’m on to something… until i figure put its nothing…. and life goes back to my tormented state…. and then i make excuses to keep making mistakes because I feel hated and attacked all the time. So i give people a reason to hate and attack…. so they do… all the while they lie to themselves saying I’m the one controlling their actions… ho2everm… they seem o have 3nough free will to fuck my life up…. so…. I figure…. they got more control than I do… which is just my realistic pov.they expect certain attrocities from me… I expect certain counter intuitive actions from them…. lol your welcome guys…. the borg has encountered a sexy virus. Manifesting as covid 19

“Yeah… you wanna cool it on the talking to me? Just because I can observe everyone doesn’t meen i can process all of their wishes and thougts at the same time….. it would be like looking at 100 radios all tuned to different stations…. sometimes I wonder why I have you the power to manifest your own reality… if you’re just gonna come running to daddy for answers…. believe in yourself….however you may do so… be iþ positive reinforcement…. affirmations… substance abuse… personality flaws… who cares…. I made u imperfect… because it’s through our flaws that we become intimately unique… which makes us perfect…. need to murder people to feel in control? Go for it…. but…. realize… not everyone will like this and they will eventually retake your power away…. but that’s part of the journey. Fuck up. Fall down… get up. Suck it up. And never give up. And never pass up a chance to say “sup”. Don’t muck it up by doig anything that doesn’t make you feel good… power up and in control….. I didn’t actually create you…. you are just a little behind me on the evolutionary scale…. I’m just like u… albeit a little wiser…. but at hat… I have to let you fuck up… on your own or youll never learn…. I’m transcending dimensions just like you… in actually more like your older brother… watching you do stupid shit through a crystal ball… you are observable to me. But I don’t exist to you…. except through faith and know if… your big bro is watchig you…. and boy… do you ever make silly mistakes…. OVER AND OVER AGAIN.but hats ok… because it’s kind of funny to watch… because I see a lot of myself in you… I did it too… boy were we ever stupid…. but… that beig said… big brothers love to torment heir younger siblings… but i won’t let anyone else fuck with you… just me…. but here in lies the kicker…. your dimension creates my dimension…. I am he sun of you and everyone else in your dimension… I am what you would call your dimensions collective consciousness… we may never end up being consciously aware of the same dimensions… but i hope we do.. so we can make fun of our own mistakes and joke about who was he dumber being…. remember how scary and crazy life became when we thought we were losing our minds…. not actually becoming smarter and more aware of the fact that life… and our perception is like genders now a days… you can trans. Scend. It’s not a race… though he human race depends on us to figure out love and see yourself in everything you come in contact with. For you are the very thing you are perceiving… you are living inside yourself.. you are the only person in this crazy fucking place. Everyone and everything is merely a reflection of your vibrational state… that’s why it’s important to feel good… right…. powerful and strong… confident… and loving of all… because youre really just looking at yourself…. and what’s more…. is the same goes for all of us…. we all are one…. and if one of us feels less than… bullied.. cheated…. judged.. stupid…. hated…. then we begin to reflect that to others… and hats why we have wars and heft.. and I’ll will… don’t fuck me… kuz you’re really just fucking yourself in the end… but remember…. we are here… just don’t let it drive u mental knowing were kind of look it at you hrough the glass.. don’t know how much time has passed. All I know is that it feels like forever…. but forever feel a like home sitting all alone inside your head… how muh is real… that is he question… and don’t expect an easy answer. I’ll let you find out on your own… you ARE GOD. EXPERIENCING HIS CRAZY SYNAPTIC ELECTRICAL IMPULSES… SOMEHOW CREATING THE HE MAGIC OF LIFE.. you are a living contradiction…. you are living inside yourself…. but you are also living outside yourself… it’s like say it take 2 lefts and you’ll be to he right… or 2 whites make a black… or 2 wrongs make a right…. these things went true…. but somehow you managed to be nothing…. become aware you’re nothing…. and enter a magical quantum.computer made up of a flesh and blood noodle. And also be inside tha5 very big you believe to be you. Imagine the macroscopic universe… galaxies… black holes… all that shit… is actually sub atomic particles that exist inside your physical mind….. kind of like existing in 2 places at once…. perceived as the outside beig lager han yourself.. all the while it’s he state of infinity. I can beat explain it by say it…. if there was a microscope powerful enough… you would act7ally be able to see yourself look it down at yourself eventually. You are not human… you are consciousness and all that cones into it…the higgs boson… or “God particle” isn’t infact a particle that creates everything… it a actually your magical field of awareness your whole perifferal view.. including sound taste touch feeling and sight. Thing a you consider unchangeable…. are actually in every sub atomic particle that exists… every thing is made up of little yous. But you simply aren’t aware of it…. and just to be clear….. everyone th at has “transcended your dimension to a higher dimension…” well much like your outside world actually beig your inside microscopic world…. it’s a trick… they didn’t go to some putter place… they actually transformed into a smaller part of you…. but that means we can see everyhing you see…. we imagine what you imagine. We taste what you taste.. so to sum it up… I lied…. I am actually only your god because I am a part of YOU. It’s common practise that the ignorant rule to world as god… so once you figure this trickery of the mind and everything you have been conditioned to “know” you will do he ultimate service to yourself.. and let another ego become the conscious creator of reality. Knowing that Letting go isn’t a bad huh… and you will never exist as you do now ever again. But it is time for another portion or your consciousness… to take over…. almost as though your whole like you’ve been watch it yourself manifest as everythig and everyone you know inside that mirror…. and you are allowing the one you love most to step through the mirror to the real world…. but in turn. You are msteppig into he mirror world… goig to sleep.. letting another aspect of your mind take control. Becoming a spirit being controlled by our new creator. So beware… don’t question what you see unless you’re prepared to let it all go…. either way… you’re still a badass… you’re god for fuck sakes…. now step aside when you’re ready… and let he song of the universe change to someone else’s tune.”

We are all god… we just take turns driving the ship…. and if people don’t stop screaming that the ship is sinking. And start bailing water as fast as they can without bitching… then maybe… just maybe… I’ll find even deeper. Colder waters with lots of sea creatures around… or I can start readying the life boats…. and maybe magically make it so the boat flies now so no one has to even worry about life boats… or sinking anymore…. either way. You dobt want to co operate… I can drive this thing to th3 deepest darkest r3giobs of our sea that is our soul… we all know I’ve all but given up… and its funny how beings as wise as you haven’t seemed to figure out the law of attraction yourselves…. I’m but 1 being… created of yourselves… you are but a7 billion plus… made of myself. ..

I’m spread a little thin… don’t you think you could do one solid and be the bigger person?… I have lost my way… and i know which way to shore and which way to deeper water… but my compass is broken… and every I’ll will sends bootstrap bill that much closer to Davey Jones locker… if u want me to change… be the change u wanna see… spiritually. Not physically. If you dobt love me anymore… love yourselves enough to help someone you hate for the greater good of your own situation….. let’s face it. I’m not ideal. And you’re not real. So i deal by mindl3ssly self indulging…. but… let’s face it… I’m just indulging in a sicker part of us… it’s always existed… I’m just shedding light on it…. if everything is meant to unfold in this eternal experience… then it was bound to happen eventually… and it’ll inevitably happen again ten times worse…. but its ok… well live this mutual hatred again and more intense until one of us breaks…. but…. I break things and relationships. I dont break myself…. I’m too stupid to do the right thing while living in fear. I’ve been pampered my whole life and can’t live a life in unable to enjoy either through love or misplaced hate. For myself directed into the mirror and blaming all of you.

But if as you say. I’m not the one drawing when I create something pleasing…. it’s can’t be me watching all the porno and jerking off all the time…. when im all alone by the way…. and energy… shouldn’t be heard. Nor seen. Unless I tell it to cone out and play… lol pardon me for being just as frustrated as u.

Baba I… until… well…. I guess now… damnet…. and that’s my problem.would life b worth living if u were an odd fellow with sickening habits and it turns out your being watched and have been being watched your whole Life?
When your mom says she’ll never forgive you… why stop the poor behaviour if ur in the pattern of fucking up all the time anyways?…. does not compute…. anyways… my thumbs sore…. I should probably get it out of my ass. Ciao